Chaottica and Effecta

Chaottica

Chaos theory shows that, given enough time and variables, anything can happen, but the probability of certain things recurring is much greater when and if they can happen a first time, provided that those environmental variables increase in stability with the passage of universal time beyond the first occurence.

You do not have a soul that will continue to exist and be self-aware beyond your death. However, the fact that you exist now leads to all likelihood that, given enough time in the continuity of the human species, you can and will exist again.

This is NOT the classic definition of reincarnation, so wipe that thought out. Reincarnation says that you have a soul that will separate from your body and immediately or soon after enter another. This is not the case at all.

When you die, you cease to exist, but the stage is set for you to exist again, provided that the human species continues to evolve and breed for a long enough time and with enough volume that the probability of your next existence reaches the critical mass of inevitability. This might take hundreds, thousands or even millions of years in universal time, but that is moot, since you will not exist, therefore you will not experience the passage of that time. You will not exist again with any memory of who you are now, but it will be you, and from your perspective the time will not pass at all, you will be born again instantaneously, with a clean slate, somewhere else in time.

As with reincarnation, this is also not to be confused with any individualistic notion of Buddhism or similar philosophies that base themselves around the self with concepts like karma. “Effecta” is the notion that ALL humans can and should work together to continue laying a strong foundation on which the species can perpetuate itself. This includes but is not limited to climate awareness, socials ethics, and the firm yet honorable governing of society.

Effecta, or universal karma, is currently very low in this world. The population is increasing too quickly, and more importantly, it is doing so without building a strong enough foundation for it’s future generations.

In this way, the increase in effecta by individual contribution is required by us all. Doing so is both selfless and self-preserving, if it is done so with the knowledge that without effecta, the odds of your continued existence and rebirth are severely diminished.

Probability and chaos theory is the essence of Chaottica; it is the fundamental concept by which all things in the universe work, and it is under the long term influence of positive probability increase (effecta) that we can both continue as a species, and insure our own continuation as individuals with conscious thought within this species.

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Spirit

Given: the human brain stores and organizes memory.

If: the human soul exists as an entity apart from the physical brain, and can continue to exist after human death.

Then: Can the human soul retain no memory of it’s own? Does it’s existence necessitate the brain in order to develope and retain the environmental variables and experience required to create a personality?

I think this has to be a yes, unless some evidence can be found otherwise. The individual soul, if it exists, must use the physical affects of the human brain in order to develope and retain memory, experience, and personality. Hence, if the soul does continue to exist before life and/or after physical death, it must exist in a purely “blank slate” state.

This kind of evidence tends towards a conclusion that there is no “soul” beyond the personality created by the brain in it’s developement, as the entire potential relationship of the soul with the functioning of the brain does not indicate that we NEED some sort of spirit in order to be developed, social, and self-aware. All we need is the brain.

I wish — I HOPE — that I am wrong. But I don’t think I am.

EDIT: scratch that. I think I am right, and it isn’t a bad thing. Epiphanies of a sort be occurin’. Definitely more later.

More later… (I said that)

The LTK Static Yule Loot List

Things I want for Yule/Equinox/Xmas/what-have-you…

A gift card (Visa/Mastercard/AmEx/Amazon/etc) of any amount

Iphone chargers (plug/usb/dock)

Black or gray button-up shirts & work shirts (XXL)

Undershirts/underwear (XXL)

USB drives (portable HD’s and/or key drives)

Food and/or coupons with which to buy food

Speedy points!  (speedway gas station points, speedyrewards.com)

CD/DVD racks (small compact ones to place on a desktop or dresser)

color & black ink for HP Deskjet D1455 (or a new small printer w/ink)

travel luggage

Anarchy Online game time cards/codes (yes I’m serious)

iTunes gift cards/codes

wireless USB keyboard/mouses

batteries (AA, AAA, and 9-volt)

90- to 120-pound paper stock and lamination material (for full sheets and/or cards)

TURN-BASED pc games (i hate real-time stuff, I get distracted and lose)

audio books (preferably science fiction)

hugs

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You know…

Sometimes I’m just not a very “up” person.

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Government Means Governing

The government is not too big. It is not even big enough.

Say that to a right wing loon, and their response almost always comes from one of two places:

1. They are well off due to whatever position enables them to remain blind to the rest of the not-so-well-off world, and so they spout off the repetitive (and downright false) fear-mongering fed to them by their representing political party who’s obvious goals include retaining the ability to keep the rich as rich as possible and keep them from ever believing the voices of the legitimately poor by using the minority of those poor who remain that way through nothing but their own laziness as examples of how all poor people must wind up that way.

2. They are not well off, but live in some rural right-wing “real America” location in which the only exposure they have to the world outside their town is Fox “fear the left” news and brainwashed church goers who will believe any politician so long as they claim to go to the same church twice a week.

Fact is, as has been proven time and time again, that capitalism only works with the appropriate amount of regulation. As we all know (but the far right still refuses to accept in a “la la la not listening” kind of way), when you let the CEO-driven private market set the rules, they will inevitably manipulate and change the rules in order to further their own causes, and they will ALWAYS do so at the expense of an ignorant lower income bracket that will sit back and take it up the tailpipe because they simply don’t know that they are being screwed (and more often than not, they actually believe that they are being screwed by the “liberals”, usually via some made-up rhetoric fed to them by the pick-a-pundit selection of conservative radio hosts available to listen to at any given moment.)

Capitalism CAN work, but ONLY if it is regulated by a governing body who’s job it is to protect the people who voted them into office in the first place. This is WHY we have a government, for fucks sake! How can the far right continue to garner and increase support for keeping the government as tiny and powerless as possible while the CEO’s financially rape us every single day without any regard for fair treatment?

I’ll tell you why: they’re in the pockets of those CEOs, and they’re easily convincing America otherwise by saying “hey, I’m in the government and I want to keep us small for YOUR protection, it’s so selfless and sacrificing of me!”. No, it’s not. You’re the one getting what can only be called “legalized kickbacks” from the very same companies that are grouping up and lobbying to keep you in power and keep you lying to the people about your intentions. The RIAA, the health insurance industry, the superbanks… Big Oil. All those who have the power to profit from American ignorance so long as that ignorance is legitimized by the official spokespeople of the government that set the first rules of corporate power in place.

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The Cup is Too Full

Life certainly has a way of changing dramatically when you’re not expecting it… or ready for it.

Of course, if life changes just waited for us to be ready, not much would ever change, I suppose.

I just sent a very difficult email.  I bowed out of my Serenity RPG gaming group.  We were set to meet today for a session, and I missed the last one, and nearly half of the sessions for the past few months I haven’t been able to make.  It’s very clear that I have too much going on.

But it’s not that I don’t want to game, quite the opposite, I love doing it.  I simply don’t have the time anymore to dedicate to it, and it’s getting expensive to make the drive when I’m on what could be called the tightest budget I’ve ever had in my life.

As a public notice and a chiseled-in-stone “note to self”, I have to say that I absolutely love that gaming group, and leaving it on account of my own sanity feels selfish, despite the contradiction of intent.  Gordon, Stephanie, Joel, Ann, Lon, and Dean are such a freaking AWESOME gaming group — easily the best group I’ve ever tabletopped with — that I’m pretty much bringing myself to tears over making the call.

The facts are as they are.  I’m busy every single day, and things need to get done.  Not next week, not later today, but right now, during the only time I have to do them before it’s back to work (and before it gets too cold to get some of this crap moved and/or thrown out to make more room for Sprkly, among other requisite duties).  I’m pretty much booked up for the year, and social outlets are not a luxury I can afford right now.  Perhaps again in a few months time, when I start to see that gray calendar area start to take shape in around February and my budget starts to even out and my ability to time-manage starts to pay off on a longer notice.

Until then, I still look forward to the things that are coming.  I may be able to release an album, I may be able to finish my book, and I may yet create a living condition under which Sprkly and I can proudly share for the rest of time.  I look forward to advancing my career and grabbing new opportunities.  I look forward to finally getting something done with my life in the series of bold leaps that need to be taken in succession, potentials for tragedy be damned.  I look forward to facing down my own life and beating it soundly with a wet noodle.

But gorramit, I’m going to miss gaming with the Lansing Serenity group.  I love them.

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Five Things

Five People You’d Like to See Locked in a Room Together (to see what happens)…

John Stewart, Stephen Colbert, Barack Obama, David Letterman, and Rush Limbaugh.

(chanting: FIVE MEN ENTER, FOUR MEN LEAVE!)

Five People You Wouldn’t Want to Wake Up to See Standing at the Foot of Your Bed

My mother; a police officer; an RIAA representative; a republican; an orc (thanks Sprkly)

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Blogging

It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged.

More later. ;)

Good Things

I’m focusing on the good things today. Mostly because I really need to.

My girlfriend is the most beautiful, caring, sexy, lovable, and coolest angel to come into my otherwise pathetic life.

Her kids rock too.

Obama is president.

John Stewart is still hilarious.

GridStream is still sponsored and still going strong. Also, my Friday night shows are rocking fun.

Dark Chocolate tastes awesome.

Vodka gets me happy & stupid.

I created a format for a kids board game. Will be testing it on Sprkly’s munchkins next weekend.

I still have great taste in music and visual arts.

I have a steady job.

My friends like my dorkiness.

I are have IQ.

I repositioned my router at home and my connection now rocks.

I’m getting laid.

More later.

Aliveocity

When you feel alive doing something, you should do it as often as practicality allows. When practicality no longer allows it, it’s time to re-budget your time, to allow that feeling back in.

Writing, music, art, crafts, whatever shapes your mind into that alpha state of contented zen, it needs to be nurtured. More often than not, this requires an unconventional mental discipline in many people in this day and age.

We as an entire generation have without a doubt a form of attention “deficit”. We can be trained to budget our time for practicality eventually, but can we do the same internally? Can we sequence our spans of attention to begin and, more importantly, complete a project of creative outlet?

I’m pretty bad with the latter, but I am resolving to undo that. There are so many things begun that have not been brought even close to an acceptable completion. They must be finished.

When a goal is set, it must be met.

More later…